How To Save a Life.

Where did I go wrong, I've lost a friend,
...
Had I known how to save a life.

- How To Save A Life, by the Fray.

This was the song I rewinded again and again to facilitate my salty tears.
I've just read your blog. If only you knew, when you grieve, I grieve too. I may seem two dimentional at times, but I really do care about you. I'm sorry if my intellect can't catch up with yours, I'm sorry if my comprehension skills cannot make sense of your pain and weariness, I'm sorry for not being able to be there for you, for being so helpless in your hour of need.

I really do care about you too, S.L.M, but sometimes, 24 hours just aren't enough to do all the things I want to do.

Numb grief took over my appetite when I heard what happened and how much you needed me at that point of time, and how terribly I've failed you. Is it true ? That I care more about the outsiders than you guys ? Am I really all that externally dressed but internally empty and substanceless ?

2nd Day of Being 18. It's tough. I'm not loving it.

I'm glad I didn't go to the Switchfoot concert. I'm so glad I didn't.